The Perfect Reunion... Ruined..

I had the perfect reunion for me and the girl I love. It would been over a month since we had seen each other. I planned on getting a single red rose, and having a friend pull a favor from the apartment me and my  girlfriend would live. Before she even arrived to her room for the first time, I was going to get in her apartment and stand in her room waiting for her, with the rose in my hand. I was going to wait for her to open the door and I would stand there, and probably cry. I would tell her, "hello, I've missed you, and I am sorry I haven't been there for you lately. I love you, I love you so much." Then I would hug her, and kiss her cheek, then hand her the rose. Everything after that would depend on what she did.

This is no longer possible... Tears have been streaming down my face ever since six o'clock today. It is now eight. I love you, baby, I love you so much... But I understand why you wrote the letter.. I understand why we can't be together. Do I wish I could go to your house and convince you not to do this, but I promised you I would let you go if you wanted to go. And I always keep my promises. I promised I would love you always, and I will, but I will let you go. Please just know, I will always love you.. And I am sorry for anything I might have done.

Pictures

I look at the one picture I have
of you and me together.
I look at the pictures of you
just so I can remember
how stunning you are
because my memory does not satisfy
to your beautiful self
I wish it were classified
for just me alone
although I don't know why
its so hard to use the phone
to text please forgive me
for everything I've done
to tell you I love thee
and that I never stopped
thinking of you
every moment of every day
I promise it is true
of everything I say.
I hope you got my letter
the one with all the stars
I hope things will get better
and there wont be any scars
maybe all you needed
was a little time
I hope you had succeeded
and that things are at its prime.
I'll finish with one last thing
and I'll make it real quick
I hope to feel that ting
when our skin does lick
against the other
and is so close
that we could smother
the other person's woes.
I love you dear.
Please, if you could,
whisper in my ear
if you ever would...
Love me again,
the way I always loved you...
the way I loved you...
The way I LOVE you.
I love you.

You+Me=?

I miss you,
I miss you so damn much.
I miss you,
and every little touch.
I love you,
I love your everything,
I love you
I promise this aint a fling.
Please tell me
Please tell me what is true
Please tell me
"I still care about you."
I miss you,
I miss you so damn much.
I miss you
and every little touch.
Do you love me?
Do you love your little dork?
Do you love me?
even though my temper is short?
I love you
I love every little thing
I love you
and I PROMISE this aint no fling.
I love you.

Not Until I Know

I wont text
not until I know
because I dont know what to do..
you still work nights,
and I dont know what you are doing..
I dont know if you even want to talk to me still
and I don't know if I did something wrong.
Because I know if this ended up not working out,
it would be on me.
I know it would.
Don't try to tell me otherwise,
because I know it to be true.
I know I love you
and I know I would do anything
to make you happy,
even if that means to leave.
<3 ?

I'm Tired

I'm tired.
I'm tired of not knowing
not knowing if you still love me.
Not knowing what I did wrong...
IF I did something wrong.
I'm tired
I'm tired of being scared
scared of losing you
scared of my confusion
and scared if you got my letter.
I'm Tired
I'm tired of being far away
far away from knowing
far away from hugging
and far away from you.